Insensitive

litrato: Alak na nakalalasing (mas mabilis kung ipupukpok sa ulo)

Masaya na ako at dumating ka sa buhay ko. Nagagawa ko na ulit tumawa, humalakhak, ngumiti. Hindi na ako yung dating si Elbert na tahimik, suplado, hindi makausap ng maayos. Lahat nagbago simula ng dumating ka. Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit ganito nararamdaman ko sayo. Ang mahalaga sa akin eh masaya ako sa nararamdaman ko, sana ganun ka din.

Isang text. Galit ka na. Ayaw mo na akong kausapin, replyan, ipinagtabuyan mo na ako. Ganon lang ba talaga kadali ang kaligayahang mararamdaman ko? Akala ko pang matagalan na. Pinasabik lang ba talaga ako?

Oo aaminin ko mahal na kita. Sa sandaling pinagkakilala natin eh nahulog na ang loob ko sayo. Araw-araw, oras-oras, minu-minuto, isasasama ko na rin ang segu-segundo na hindi ka nawaglit sa isipan ko.

Ngayon hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. Akala ko magiging masaya na ang mga araw na darating pa sa buhay ko. Hindi pala at hindi ko alam kung magiging masaya pa. Gusto kong sumigaw, magwala, magalit sa sarili ko (engot, insensitive kase), magpakalasing para lang makalimutan ko kahit saglit itong sakit sa damdamin ko.

Ayoko na ng ganito. Hindi na ba ako magiging masaya? Lagi na lang bang sakit ang aking madarama? Lagi na lang ba akong iiyak, magmumukmok, ihihiwalay na naman ang sarili sa mundo?

Sabi nga sa lyrics ng Beer by Itchyworms

Ibuhos na ang beer sa aking lalamunan
upang malunod na ang puso kong nahihirapan
bawat patak, anong sarap
ano ba talagang mas gusto ko
ang beer na ‘to o ang pag-ibig mo?


Sympre mas gusto ko ang pag-ibig mo…..

pag-ibig nga kaya?

litrato: ilaw

Ano bang gayuma meron ka?
Hindi ka mawaglit sa aking alala.
Natataranta at natutuliro.
Sino na nga ba ako?

Maari ka bang maging akin?
Gawing makulay ang mapanglaw kong damdamin.
Lagyan ng liwanag ang madilim kong daan.
Upang makarating sa aking patutunguhan.

Comfort Zone

litrato: tanikala.. igapos mo ako at wag nang pakawalan pa..

Ilang araw na akong puyat, nagiisip, nagmumuni-muni, nagtataka kung bakit nagiging ganito takbo ng buhay ko ngayon. Ilang araw pa lang ang nakakalipas pero para bang buwan na ang nagdaan. Kelan lang eh tahimik ako sa comfort zone ko, masaya, lumalabas kasama ang mga kaibigan, papindot-pindot lang ng camera, umaasang makakakuha ng larawan na maganda.

Heto at bigla kang dumating sa buhay ko. Ilang araw pa lamang kitang nakikilala eh ang lakas na ng dating mo sa akin. Hinahanap hanap ang mga matamis mong ngiti, ang iyong pagtawa, pagsimangot, pagtataas ng boses at pag-aalala. Ikaw na nga ba ang matagal ko nang hinihiling? Makakapagpanumbalik ng kulay at ngiti sa aking buhay? Arrgg… Ewan ko. Hindi na ko sanay sa ganitong damdamin. Dahil sa iyo napalabas ako sa comfort zone ko.

a night to remember

collections of pictures, different exposures but the same location, merged together to form an animated gif file.

telephone cord

if i call your name,
will you hear me?
if i call your number,
will you be there to answer?
or someone will?

i wish that at the end of this line,
i will hear your voice and all will be fine.

Antipolo Nighshoot

Antipolo nighshoot overlooking manila, makati, qc, marikina and san juan.

Gladiator

"what we do in life echoes eternity."

Sunshine after the Storm

Storms may come into your life, but don't forget that there will always be sunshine to brighten up your day and guide you through life.

10 floors down

too in awe of you, i almost missed a step

and even if i didn’t i had still fallen ten floors down

only to find out that your image is a reflection

of everything that i already am

Sunset in our Hearts

"When you lose someone… and you think you were the one who loved most, between the two of you… that someone lost more. For someday you can love someone the way that you loved that someone…But that someone will never be loved again the way that you did."

Night shoot at Marikina Riverbank

September 16, 2008
10pm onwards

I was working at around 4pm when JF buzzed me, asking me to join them on a Chowking Congee EB. I turned down his offer because I still have a client to attend to after my regular work.

Before my regular work ended, Vinzer buzzed me telling me that he, Jabey and Randy will be having a night shoot at Marikina Riverbanks at around 9pm. At first i hesitated... because... I left my tripod at home... sigh... but then I realized that both of them brought their tripods so i can borrow any tripod from them (whoever will be).

All the while, I thought that Jabey will join us in the night shoot but to no avail, hhmmm, (how can i put it in words), "his laziness strikes again". bwahahaha. Then off I go to meet with Vinzer.

I arrived in Riverbanks around 9:15pm, bump, already closed, i need to buy some bubble plastic for my old lens so i can ship it to Davao.

Vinzer texted me that we should meet in Greenwhich. Ok, Greenwhich it is. I ordered their cheapest meal available (1 slice of pizza and some spags with 1 glass of iced tea). Vinzer arrived and i say "bbuuurrppp".

We met Randy at the back of Riverbanks, then we walked going to Marcos Highway, we settled just a little far under the bridge (hhuuuwwwaaattt??). We took a couple of night shots. I borrowed any tripod available. I even used my bag as a tripod.


After a few hours of shooting (naks.. artistahin.. pa burger naman.. burger.. burger... ), we decided to pack up. Upon walking back to Riverbanks Mall. Ooopppssss... wait.. I told them... let me borrow a tripod.. okay.. Randy handed his tripod to me, I set it up, took a couple of shot under the LRT line 2 tracks. hehehe.. "nainggit ang mga loko". bump.. no more tripod for me, but... "maabilidad tayo eh".. i used a monopod. (what monopod? wait.. let me explain...). Theres this thing.. what should i call it? the bar where they ties the boat so that the flow of the river won't wash it away.. that's it.. imagine all you want. don't make me beat myself explaining more of this whatever that is.


I used it as a monopod, i believe Vinzer took a picture of me while using the "monopod". Again, we took a couple of shot and some group hugs. We then decided to really stop the shooting.. but we started the shoting.. kurslayt mode.

We ended up in a newly opened bar, WTF, i can't remember the bar's name. wait.. let me get my wallet, got it!!!! "Cafe Mina". We order 1 bucket of kurslayt and some platters. They're so accommodating.

We took some pictures of the food we ordered...

At around 2 am, we decided to go home.

more pictures here
http://accemm.multiply.com
http://www.flickr.com/accemm

rusty barbedwire

This is a shot from a barbedwire fence in Mt. Samat, Bataan.

A couple of friends and I went there to experience what is it like at the summit of Mt. Samat.

here are some photos I took during the trip.


a panoramic picture of the valley near the mountain.


a long look of the cross.

Road to Pinatubo - a fun adventure

"road to pinatubo"


"start of the trekk"


"the crater"

after the erruption of Mt. Pinatubo last 1991, 8 of my friends and I trekked to the lahar up to the Mt. Pinatubos crater last August 24, 2008. It's a fun and tiring trekk, but when we reached the summit, it's a one helluva experience i will never forget. the beauty of the crater is "stunning". one of my photography group mate said "a beauty behind the devastation". too bad we only stayed 2 hrs in the crater because of the hard rain and i only took a few shots. but still it's a fun experience.

Divine Intervention

blue rays of sunset overcasting the capones island in pundaquit san antonio zambales.

Butterfly Macro

Worlds of Butterfly in Marikina, Philippines

sunset at my place

while i was waiting for a friend. i noticed the orange clouds formation. i was stunned by the beauty of it, so i took out my camera and took a couple of pictures. here is the best shot.