Messed UP

Messed Up

“Life’s not fair!”. These are the few words I kept on hearing almost everyday. Sometimes I think of that too, but who am I to complain? We chooses the path we take, we decides what we will do on our lives. Along the road, we made wrong choices, decisions that we regretted, but it’s already done, we can’t turn back the hands of time and correct our wrongdoings.

I know my life’s almost a mess. No work, no funds in case of emergency (God forbid). It’s been like forever since my last work. I’m getting interviews, sometimes, and I’m able to go up to the final interview. I don’t know what the problem is, maybe my skills are not enough for them, maybe this, and maybe that or maybe I’m the problem. My girlfriend keeps on telling me that I’m the problem why am I not getting the job after the final interview. And I don’t know why I am the problem. Can someone tell me why I am the problem?

I know I’m not that good for a boyfriend. A lot of shortcomings, and I’m sorry for that, but I’m doing my best or at least I know it’s my best to please you, make you happy, compensate for what I’m lacking. My life’s empty without you.

Have you ever wonder what’s life on the other side? Well, sometimes I wish I’m dead, free from all these miseries, but it’s not the way it is, you need to move on, carry on with your life. Life sometimes sucks, not the way you want it to be.

Be patient, this is one of the mottos I have in my life. I used to have a lot of this, but now, I don’t know when I will break down.